There have been a lot of things over my life that I've given up, both tangible and not. Some of these things I gave up willingly (the relationship with an abusive mother, a potential career in the military, the church) while others were much harder to let go of (the knowledge that I'll never build… Continue reading To grieve…
Category: Thoughts & Musings
As I am…
A lot of time has passed since my last writing since I've been working on some physical issues as well as emotional ones. First, the physical. I have another new doctor. I explained during the first visit that the swelling started long before the weight gain and I think, this time, I was taken seriously.… Continue reading As I am…
Choices…
First, a small warning: If you don't like a bit of cussing, now is the time to close the page. If you don't like bluntness, now is the time to close the page. If you don't like not knowing every juicy detail of what I'm about to share, now is the time to close the… Continue reading Choices…
Healing, forward…
It's been a year since I started a self-therapy journey after a bad experience with a therapist, the lack of another in town to take their place, and the struggle to find a therapist in my insurance list within 75 miles of my house. I knew, however, that I needed something to help me get… Continue reading Healing, forward…
Reaching into Darkness
As the season continues shifting into the darker part of the year, I find myself thinking more and more about where I'm heading. I announced on Wednesday that I was closing the dyeing portion of my shop and that is still weighing heavy on my heart. Even though I know that it's the best choice… Continue reading Reaching into Darkness
A bit of rambling…
Bounding down the concrete stairs in high heels, wearing coordinated tops and accessories, flitting from one place to the next, not thinking about tomorrow. Fewer high heels but still coordinated, kids are coordinated, too. Still flitting, but a little slower to accommodate the smaller wings at her side. Long dresses, New Age music, challenging the… Continue reading A bit of rambling…
My desk…
The messy, but wonderful surface of my desk. I used to go to the thrift shop quite a bit in the hopes that I'd find some sort of treasure. I've found a few over the years and have loved them all. This time I found a desk that needed to come home with me. She… Continue reading My desk…
Postponed…
We knew that it was a strong possibility, but still held onto the hope that the virus would be under control by now. Instead, the numbers of new cases are rising each day and it's becoming more and more dangerous to leave the house. The states between Ohio and Colorado also have "shelter in place"… Continue reading Postponed…
Deep breaths…
Ofelia is so cute. It's funny how I can think of so many things to write about and when I finally sit in front of this page it all flies out of my head. I can give some updates, though. Therapy has been postponed. This particular therapist wasn't helping me. I wasn't trying to end… Continue reading Deep breaths…
Respite…
I headed out of Sandusky twice. The first time, I was stuck at the bus station in Cleveland for several hours longer than necessary because a headlamp was out on the bus we were supposed to be on. I ended up having Anthony drive an hour to come get me and take me home. I… Continue reading Respite…
Morrigan's Nest 